Love is what makes a family...

Do you ever look back at your life and see huge mistakes that you made? Maybe at the time it didn't seem like a mistake, but now you can see it was? I'm caught in amazement this morning thinking back on the last few years. I know that I have handled more tough situations badly than well. I know I had made many mistakes. How then, do I have such confidence in where I am and what I am doing now? If I made life-changing decisions based on pride or frustration which threw me into a totally different place, how is that place where I should be?! Does this make any sense to anyone? I mean, let's say I made a giant mistake which causes my life track to be completely turned around, how did I end up in a place that feels like I should have been here all along?

Have you ever had something happen that is so painful that it makes you sick? Like, someone said something to hurt you or told you something they should never have told you or you found something out that you were never supposed to know? I wish that there was a way to turn emotions on and off. Or maybe put in a drain that whenever you are so filled with hurt, anger or other painful emotions that you could just turn on the faucet and let them all out. I'm finding that I don't know how to deal with some of these things. How do you explain to people that you already have more than enough to deal with and don't need more? How do you balance what you feel you "should" do with what you "want" to do with what you really need to do?! How do you know what it is that you need to do? What if you THINK it's what you need but then find out it was only what you want? How do you tell someone they they've hurt you when you know all that will do is hurt them? How...

Feeling pretty good this morning... I am having a "small procedure" done this afternoon. The last time they told me that they said it would be completely painless - well, it was nothing like painless. I had pain and cramps for about a week. This one they said might be "uncomfortable" - yeah, if painless meant what that did, what is uncomfortable?! Guess we'll see in about 5 and a half hours. I am praying that this works as the options left if it doesn't are quite undesirable... any prayers are appreciated! So... moving onto a more positive note... I went to Sephora last night for the first time ever... luckily Michelle went with me - yeah, she's the best friend one could ever ask for. As many of you know, I am not a make-up wearer, but for some reason when I dressed up like a princess for my neice's birthday party and wore what looked to me like Barbie make-up, I got all kinds of compliments (especially from my husband!) So, heading on over there I w...

It's been a long, long time since I've had a blog... I've recently been encouraged to start one back up, so we will see how it goes! So much has happened in the last couple of years, and God has been SO evident through all of it. I can look back now and see why things have happened the way that they have and am so thankful to have a God that cares as much as He does to work in all the complicated ways that he does! Ryan and I have just passed our one year anniversary and are feel as blessed as ever to have been brought together. We are so thankful to have the jobs that we do (however long and complex the road was to get them!) and are often reminded of how lucky we are to own the wonderful home we do - however much work there is to do. More and more I am reminding myself to count my blessings. How easy it is to see the negatives and focus on the worries of life instead of thanking God for having the things that we do. We have faced so many trials the last 2 years and have f...