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It's been a long, long time since I've had a blog... I've recently been encouraged to start one back up, so we will see how it goes!
So much has happened in the last couple of years, and God has been SO evident through all of it. I can look back now and see why things have happened the way that they have and am so thankful to have a God that cares as much as He does to work in all the complicated ways that he does!
Ryan and I have just passed our one year anniversary and are feel as blessed as ever to have been brought together. We are so thankful to have the jobs that we do (however long and complex the road was to get them!) and are often reminded of how lucky we are to own the wonderful home we do - however much work there is to do.
More and more I am reminding myself to count my blessings. How easy it is to see the negatives and focus on the worries of life instead of thanking God for having the things that we do.
We have faced so many trials the last 2 years and have fought many battles, but I know that because we already have those experiences we will be stronger through the rest of our marriage and the rest of our lives.

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Anne said…
WORD!! You have a blog!
July 7, 2008 at 10:16 AM
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