In only 8 days, Ryan and I will be on our way to "jolly old England" - ha! I'm SOOOOOO excited!!! Most people have a lot of pictures of them with their siblings... I have exactly 3 with all 7 of my siblings. The oldest I am in any of these is 12. I am now 26. Yes, it has been 14 years and 4 weddings since we were all in the same place at the same time. The only request my mom had for their 50th wedding anniversary? All 8 of her children in the same place at the same time. So, June 5th, all 8 of us - with spouses and kids in tow - will be in the same place at the same time. It will be epic. 41 people all direct descendants of two amazing people. Congrats mum and dad in making it through 8 kids, 8 weddings, 22 grandkids and 1 grandkid wedding!
So, I've had several draft posts that I've started and haven't finished.... so I am going to try and cover everything in one and get it all out there! I woke up this morning with our boy on my mind. He called me last night (as he does most weeks) and I had to go back through my phone and find photos of him when I woke up this morning. My heart still breaks for this kid who has lived through more trauma than Ryan and I will ever know. This boy who so desperately wants to be loved but doesn't know how to accept it. This boy who still calls me mom. This boy who continues to make progress then throw it all away. We love him. We know that he had to leave and that our time with him served it's purpose and he needed to move on... however, as challenging as those months were, we still miss him. All the time. We are processing where we are and the heartbreak of having another kid who holds our hearts but isn't with us. It's not easy. I am heartbroken and ...
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