As I come up on my 29th birthday, I feel good about what I have been able to accomplish so far in life. My main concern now is that i'm able to grow in maturity and as I move into a phase of life where I no longer get a pass for "being young" and that I will no longer need it. There are so many people I identify with that are criticized for things they should have learned in their younger years. I pray I won't be one of those women. God grant me wisdom, humility and grace.
So, I've had several draft posts that I've started and haven't finished.... so I am going to try and cover everything in one and get it all out there! I woke up this morning with our boy on my mind. He called me last night (as he does most weeks) and I had to go back through my phone and find photos of him when I woke up this morning. My heart still breaks for this kid who has lived through more trauma than Ryan and I will ever know. This boy who so desperately wants to be loved but doesn't know how to accept it. This boy who still calls me mom. This boy who continues to make progress then throw it all away. We love him. We know that he had to leave and that our time with him served it's purpose and he needed to move on... however, as challenging as those months were, we still miss him. All the time. We are processing where we are and the heartbreak of having another kid who holds our hearts but isn't with us. It's not easy. I am heartbroken and ...
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