Love is what makes a family...

"Deciding everything is falling into place perfectly... as long as you don't get too picky about what you mean by place... or perfectly."    For those of you who don't know, I'm slightly obsessed with Brian Andreas Story People and this one really struck me when I came across it the other day.  How much better is life when we decide that everything is falling into place perfectly? Sure, it might not be going the way we anticipated or even prefer, but making the decision to not only accept things the way they are but decide that they are  perfect...  wow.  How freeing is that??  I woke up this morning and thought about all the plans I had made for this week and how many rearrangements I am having to make, how many things have come up to mess with my "best laid plans" and decided to accept everything that is happening this week for the way it is - perfect. 

So, I don't know if everyone feels like this... but I have to say, my friends are FIERCE.  I am well aware of my many faults but I have a group of friends who overlook my many flaws on a daily basis and love me anyway... HARD.  I am impulsive and often stick my foot in my mouth - I know I hurt people's feelings far more than I even realize and there are people who still stick with me, defend me and encourage me to be MYSELF.  Friendship shouldn't only be about the "love you girls" but also the willingness to put in the extra work when times are tough. Friends who are willing to step up and speak out when you are about to do something stupid. My friends do that for me too. Even when they know I won't take it well.  Honestly, my friends, the people in my life who love me fiercely, are my heroes. I hope one day to be even half the friend that these amazing people are. I couldn't get through life without them and I certainly don't deserve them...

Sometimes in life we make poor choices.  Those choices can make us feel locked in and hopeless.  As a naturally impulsive person, I can honestly say I end many days regretting choices. Sometimes small and sometimes large.   F. Scott Fitzgerald always speaks to my heart and gives me the affirmations I am sure my friends are tired of giving me.  This quote speaks to the best and worst of me.  and I love it.   It's okay to be crazy and impulsive.  It's okay to be loud and extroverted.  It's okay to want to go everywhere and learn everything.  Most of all, it's okay to have high expectations for your life .  I will continue to be ME  remembering that if I wake up one day in a life I'm not proud of, it's never too late to try again.  

Do you ever have one of those phases in life where every day you're shocked that time is flying so fast?? Yeah, that's me right now. I can't believe it's June already and that I will be 31 in just a few short weeks....  I saw this post today and have to admit, I didn't realize other people felt that way. I feel horrible for admitting that I identify with this thought, but sometimes we can put so much pressure on ourselves to be a certain way it feels like the only way not to be a disappointment is to start over.  I'm so tired of waking up with a weight on me so heavy I can barely breathe.  If someone makes you feel like a disappointment or that your best isn't good enough - it might be a good time to reevaluate that relationship. Today, I will face the fear of not being perfect and simply do the best I can.  I can't change the choices I made yesterday, all I can do is ask for forgiveness and try again today.  Every day can be a beautiful one ...