Love is what makes a family...

I've been told often over the last few years that I am too trusting. I really don't think that it's a case of being naive. I would not consider myself naive. However, I do want to believe the best of people. I want to trust people to do the right thing. I want to be able to be honest and openhearted. Sometimes... well, more than sometimes... this is not the best idea and people let me down.  The most hurtful is having someone using this trust and honesty against me. While I am being encouraged to "learn my lesson" and to stop being so trusting, I will stand firm that I would rather be too trusting than jaded.  I know there has to be a middle ground. I know there is a balance between trusting people who haven't earned it and trusting no one. Finding that balance is where I am. I don't want to be on guard. I want to be free to be me. However, I know that's not practical or realistic. So, as I go through this life trying to be real and honest, I am ...

This is probably one of the hardest blogs I will ever write, but the longer I go without doing it the more I feel like it's my only option. First secret (not so secret)... I am desperate to be a mom. Not, like, tomorrow - however, I would be okay with that - but to know that in my life I will get to nurture and raise a life. To experience the joys and heartache that only parenthood can give. Ryan is also desperate to be dad which intensifies this need for a child. We have experienced loss and hurt. We have been asked when we are having kids, have been applauded for embracing a life without kids, been given pep talks that our baby is out there and told that we really don't want kids because they're a pain in the butt. I don't for a minute want this to sound like I think we are the only couple who has ever or will ever deal with this - several of my closest friends have experienced these same feelings... which is probably why this is such a hard blog to write. I've ...