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First day of school...

So today was my kid's first day at school. 
I thought pulling into school was bad enough when I had to go as a student... but MAN, this morning was rough. 
How do you prepare a 13 year old to go into a brand new school full of 720+ kids that they've never met? How do you make sure that they have everything they need to be successful, make the right friends, not get picked on or in trouble? How do you make sure they feel loved and special all day? How do you make sure that they stand up for kids that need it and do the right things? 
All I could do this morning was say "I promise I will be here at 2:45. I love you!" and watch this sweet and horribly nervous boy walk away. 
Each hour of the day went slower than the one prior as I worried about what was happening. Whether he was making friends, whether kids were being nice to him, if teachers were being understanding and helping him, if he found all his classrooms... worries piled on worries until 2:45 and I saw him standing on the sidewalk all smiles... 
"I made some cool friends though..."

 All we can do now is pray that those friends are the right ones and that tomorrow is another good day... 
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