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The day we didn't want to come

There's a lot on our hearts today. Our son will be leaving us tomorrow.
We are heartbroken, but know that this is the best thing for him.


This quote from the amazing Pat Summitt couldn't have come at a better time. We celebrate Pat and her life. We marvel at the significant difference she made in the lives of so many. She was so wise with these words. I am sure there were countless times she had to explain to the young people in her life that when the night looks darkest, it's because the dawn is coming and not because we have been forgotten. Hard times happen to help us grow and prepare us for what is coming.

I pray that our boy knows that he isn't moving because life is cruel. He is moving because God has bigger plans for him. He needs to learn things he cannot learn with us. He needs to fly.

We will pray for him daily and continue to have limited contact. My prayer remains the same - that he will not give in to becoming a statistic but rather choose a path less taken. My prayer is that he will embrace life and the lessons and joys it has to offer. I pray that he will one day be a dad, and be there for his child. I pray that he will give back to his community.


We will hurt. He will remain in our hearts forever. We will rest in the peace that God has a greater plan and all we can do is walk in faith each day. We will cling to the knowledge that we love this boy without reservation and gave him our all.

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Kristina said…
I love you, sweet Naomi, and your big beautiful heart. What you don't realize is that everyone you meet, everyone who has the pleasure of feeling your love, leaves your presence a better person. That's how much you love. You love so much, so big, that each person you touch takes a piece away with them.
June 30, 2016 at 12:00 PM
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