I have hated so much the years of "give you hurt to God" and "trust in Him and everything will work out." For every tear and stab through my heart of wanting so desperately to be a mom, those words felt like a twist of the knife. How do I just give the hurt up and trust something that I believed each day less and less would happen? How do I not resent a God who seems to be blessing every person in my Facebook feed and not me? Yes, I know I am far from the only person dealing with wanting to be a mom. But, those of you who have you own battles would agree that the road often feels lonely and dark. Last Mother's Day was so healing for me in so many ways. To cry with a boy who so desperately wanted to be with his mom who also found space for me in his life and his heart was amazing. This year, my heart has exploded. While it hasn't been without trials and frustrations, I feel as though I have finally found my daughter. Much like when I found Ryan, something h...