Love is what makes a family...

We are now approved through Anderson County DCS to take emergency (or any) new placements!! We are anxious, but excited, about this new chapter!

Update from the Asher household!  We are doing well... adjusting okay. We are still sad... I'm sorry for those of you I have bumped into recently if I have seemed weird or off... some days are better than others but can get lost in the clouds sometimes or just end up not being able to handle what I thought I could. It's not personal and I love you all...  We filled out our paperwork for Anderson County DCS and are excited about this new chapter... we know it will be tough, but we are open and ready for what God has in store for us next! We agreed, once again, to any age, gender, race, etc. and for up to 3 kids in a sibling group (GULP!) While getting things organized and cleaned up for our home study I saw the empty picture frames in the kid's rooms. These are frames that I bought for Greg and Alexis to frame photos of their friends and family... when each of them left, the frames remained in the rooms empty. I decided this weekend to frame some of our favorite ...

So, I've had several draft posts that I've started and haven't finished.... so I am going to try and cover everything in one and get it all out there! I woke up this morning with our boy on my mind. He called me last night (as he does most weeks) and I had to go back through my phone and find photos of him when I woke up this morning. My heart still breaks for this kid who has lived through more trauma than Ryan and I will ever know. This boy who so desperately wants to be loved but doesn't know how to accept it. This boy who still calls me mom. This boy who continues to make progress then throw it all away. We love him. We know that he had to leave and that our time with him served it's purpose and he needed to move on... however, as challenging as those months were, we still miss him. All the time. We are processing where we are and the heartbreak of having another kid who holds our hearts but isn't with us. It's not easy. I am heartbroken and ...