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new home study... and owning the journey

Update from the Asher household! 
We are doing well... adjusting okay. We are still sad... I'm sorry for those of you I have bumped into recently if I have seemed weird or off... some days are better than others but can get lost in the clouds sometimes or just end up not being able to handle what I thought I could. It's not personal and I love you all... 

We filled out our paperwork for Anderson County DCS and are excited about this new chapter... we know it will be tough, but we are open and ready for what God has in store for us next! We agreed, once again, to any age, gender, race, etc. and for up to 3 kids in a sibling group (GULP!)

While getting things organized and cleaned up for our home study I saw the empty picture frames in the kid's rooms. These are frames that I bought for Greg and Alexis to frame photos of their friends and family... when each of them left, the frames remained in the rooms empty. I decided this weekend to frame some of our favorite photos with each of them. We are sad they are no longer living with us, but we are happy they were each a part of our lives. We cannot not act like their presence wasn't real. It was. These photos make me smile, not cry. Soon, we will have more to add to frames and to our story as the Asher Family. 

Thank you all again for your love and understanding... We appreciate each and every one of you!


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